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im blind, i thought i told you to turn of that light, old un-relaible, i hope you stay, my heart attack just worsened today, and im still praying for tomorrow and living for yesterday, making mistakes that won't go away, i can still see the stars, in the sky that night, we slept on the couch outside on the hill by my house, do you remember how i died in your arms...watching the star shower i wish i had been there, inside of you, was it really true all those words you spoke or lies, you make make me sick, and you never called i sat there all night long, i knew you wouldn't in my mind, but you forced my heart to believe it, i guess it was unforunate i left my heart on the line, ever since you hung up, i have been fine, in the sense that "mornings feel like midnight" and "headaches cause me to smile"...i don't get it either so stop asking what it means, i envy what you are, because its all i have ever known, i watched you walk away that night, i saw the street lamp die, the darkness swallowed you into hell, i hope i never see you agian, i love you too, don't worry its forever

to the one who envies me?

im deeply distorted inside, depressed, and sincerly divinely alone, though i wear a mask to seem okay its not true, im a fake, a liar, acting my way with smiles through life...inside im screaming for help out of this darkness...you envy me, when i am only what noone wishes to become

poem i wrote

stale hearted, i see my eyes inside your soul, turning into ashes, breathing into your sweet lungs, fire sets in your apartment, and i wished you had drowned, in the tears that fell the night i left home without you, i swallowed pills to make you go away but part of me still feels you here, hoping you have disappeared into non-exsisting times where i was never born, i never would have felt your anguish in "that love", tell me that line agian, the one "i'll never leave", that is a promise broken, i said i would believe, either way its me alone in this broken room, lights will flicker in memories of you, still i see your parents house in the dark corner of my mind, never welcome in there agian so looking at the freeway underneath this window will have to do, lying lifeless on the black top, your words out of my brain, oh my god, don't you say the lords name in vain...."she promised you everlasting" , what you got was a bus pass to stop breathing

mee likey...

mee likey stuff too...so lets see what do i like...i like the sony ericsson and the samsung double flip phone... i also like zunes, my boyfriend has one, its like a better version of the ipod, i love it :)...i will post the pictures of the double flip and zune later, but check it out on google :)

my night watching the simpsons movie, pizza, my friend, and my sick boyfriend :(

yeah, so i rented movies..1408 and the simpsons movie...ordered in a pizza and invited my friend jamie-lee over, i waited around til midnight when my boyfriend got off work to come see me...and give me a hug before going home...lately he has been working like crazy, he has two jobs, and school, i have singing lessons, play practise, and a job...we hardly have time together, but now on top of everything hes sick, and he never gets sick...and when he does, its bad...he showed up coughing and conjected, i felt so bad i just wantred to hold him all night long...make him feel better, it felt like we were married and he was coming home from work...it was cute, than this morning he was on his way to work and popped in...hew stayed for almost and hour...and i got him some neo-citron...watching him throw up...and develop a fever....i felt so bad for him...so i got him a cold cloth, he sat on my lap and i took care of him...it was adorable, i love him so much, it was a moment in life where looking into is eyes makes me melt...he is my shooting star, my wish come true, if you knew him you'ld love him too :)

panic! panic

my boyfriend told me they broke up...and i was like what the fuck they are releasing a new song. they can't be...and then i see that they got rid of the ! how i will miss the ! in panic at the disco, notw i have to change my favorite music from panic! at the disco, to panic at the disco...im sorta bummed but hey, same guys, same music, its alllll good, so i have no clue who im writing to, whoever reads this i guess, no one probably ever will, but if you do make i comment saying "i did" and i will laugh and say thank you out loud, even though you won't hear me, hehehe so im chewing some nice EXTRA BUBBLEMINT gum, and in my school's lovely library, "working" on a nutrition assignment on "healthy snacking"....SNACKING IS MADE TO BE JUNKY, what is wrong with the world, i swear my project will be called PROTEST AGIANST HEALTHY SNACKING, and my food choice will be triple chocolate something...muffins, cookies, cake...i don't know i will come up with something, i could be watching our school's basket ball team ream another school but i have to finish the project to watch the game...which doesn't make sense since its due thursday?...im so weird that im writing to nobody, im a total creeper aren't i...then you go to pete wentz's profile and he gets 55 comments and stuff, when i have none, people read his and noone reads mine, oh well maybe some da i will be known...pete's lyrics are amazing aren't they, though FUTCT is pretty much sexual inuendos, lol i live for the old stuff, but rock out and dance to the new stuff, im excited for the dvd and the album to come out next, yay, the documentry should be fun, watching random crap lol, hopefully we'll actually get to see some real stuff and no more, oooh ashlee is taking pete away from the band crap...so dumb, anyway, ta-ta for now

pictures for peter

i made these, i think they are pretty sweet, i hope you like them

amy alice//.

a poem i wrote during our break...

pete wentz is my inspiration, he is my favorite writer, i fall in love with his lyrics, like i fall for my boyfriends eyes...

aftermath-

i don't think kissing you ever felt so good

you held me tighter than i thought you could

it just keeps me going

your tender agressiveness

i fall for you with every kiss

if its over, and you force your lips upon mine

i'll come back to you

sincere and divine

so light headed

i want you so

how is it i ever

let you go

you tell me you love me

say you'll never leave

and now im stuck alone

strangling to breathe

thinking of moments i thought would last

and now that its over

present is past