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im blind, i thought i told you to turn of that light, old un-relaible, i hope you stay, my heart attack just worsened today, and im still praying for tomorrow and living for yesterday, making mistakes that won't go away, i can still see the stars, in the sky that night, we slept on the couch outside on the hill by my house, do you remember how i died in your arms...watching the star shower i wish i had been there, inside of you, was it really true all those words you spoke or lies, you make make me sick, and you never called i sat there all night long, i knew you wouldn't in my mind, but you forced my heart to believe it, i guess it was unforunate i left my heart on the line, ever since you hung up, i have been fine, in the sense that "mornings feel like midnight" and "headaches cause me to smile"...i don't get it either so stop asking what it means, i envy what you are, because its all i have ever known, i watched you walk away that night, i saw the street lamp die, the darkness swallowed you into hell, i hope i never see you agian, i love you too, don't worry its forever