i have lost who i was

so i see him still
\and i know what hes thinking
he wants to be next to me
but knows i cant be that for him
so hes with her
and hell stare at me while he kisses her
wishing my lips were pressed agianst his
and when i see him
i see every moment we were together
and i wanted him forever
i know somethings missing
and my heart is forever broken
i will never be the same person
i cant trust anyone around me
and love is much more than i had hoped for
"they told me it was pefect"
now what am i?
i am broken and seeing how he hurt me so
i will never let him go
but for now
ill just have to slip into another world
another girl inside of me
wear a smile when im around him
and pretend to be ok
im not ok
im not ok
i wont ever be the same
and in my heart i read his name
i have lost who i was
and i cant find her anymore
hes put a lock behind
what i thought was an open door
we used to talk about every single thing
and now he stares at me cold
like i am nothing
but i know it
inside him
its me he wants to see
but for now
ill have to find
who i used to be